Yahh I'm finally posting sorry. I will be posting story ideas, writting, poems ect. Enjoy.

Waters Of Time (poem)

I pause looking into the waters,
upstream-
Seeing the past-
Joy
Pain
Love
Hate
Endless years passing by
To now-
The confussion
Uncertainty
Hopeless Dispare
Looking down stream
Into the future-
It holds possibilities
The loss of creativity
Of life itself-
How soon?
Will I have time
To do all I want to do?
Need to do?
Enjoy doing?
I move on knowing if I
Pause any longer The answer is surely NO.


Lost (poem)

I've lost the one thing I didn't want to loose
I only have one wish
I only hope for one gift
It can't be wrapped with paper and happy ribbon.
The echo of my foot step
Echo a million thoughts unsaid
Through the lonely halls of my mind
The words that should have been said
Will not leave my shadow
Will I ever reach this eternal silence
Will I ever leave this shadow behind
Or will she have to know
Before it eats me from the inside out.
I don't want to be lost any longer


Silent Confession (poem)

It is here in this cold room that I tell you my confession.
My little secret that makes me so jaded, for I have only whispered it in the dark..
It goes on and on in my head, evading me every attempt to eliminate it.
This simple notion or emotion, so tantalizing.
When I met you, my life was enriched and along that beautiful path I learned.
My hidden soul was released and at last set free
Because you showed me how beautiful life can be.
You opened my eyes and made me see how precious your friendship was to me.
The emotions I have felt throughout the years
Was because I was afraid to show my tears.
I was touched by a feeling I thought I had lost
Due to the past trauma, that had caused my holocaust.
Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I have to love myself, I know, because if I don't, love will always elude my step.
And yet this little confession still runs through my head,
Of a lost love, that won't leave my head.
If only she knew, would it be something else.
If I had not smiled through gritted teeth
And had just told her the truth.Would she still be happy?


Seasons Change (poem)

Today, another day which out of pain
Could be neither bad nor precious to wait
Time and weather transform this land
And seasons have all been too short to date.
When the days are bright, we go out to play
Passing the time like a kite in the wind
At which time night falls, then let me sleep
For by chance dark has turned to light
Showing summers warmth is all too comforting
From winter's bitter cold clasp on the land
By summer's water we play and chill out
Tell winter transforms the realm to ski land
So long as days come, with every breath we'll play
So long as we can live and walk, we'll play


Your Friend? (poem)

I want to be your friend
But I don't know how to bend
Don't you know I have a hand to lend
Why won't you be my friend?
Why do you stare at the clouds,
That drift alone in the sky?
Never seeing the crowds
That pass quickly by?
I want to be your friend
But I don't know how to bend
Don't you know I have a hand to lend
Why won't you be my friend?
Don't you know that I'm lonesome,
That I sit and watch the clouds?
So please take my hand and come,
Away from the noisy crowds.
I want to be your friend
But I don't know how to bend
Don't you know I have a hand to lend
Why won't you be my friend?
Run with me through the meadows,
Then through the forests of trees.
Watch deer come from shadows
In the soft cool evening breeze.
I want to be your friend
But I don't know how to bend
Don't you know I have a hand to lend
Why won't you be my friend?
With the sky mellowing red,
The stars will awake from sleep
As we lay our self in bed
From the meadows deer will creep.
Please, don't turn and take a stand,
I only want to be your friend.
Out of all the grains of sand,
Will you take the hand I lend?


I Love You (poem)

In these three words
I tell you my world
I will not take you
Or our time with each other
For granted
By doing so I would degrade
Both of us, for understanding
Comes through time caring
And sharing.
Not only our time, but also our
Hopes, Dreams, Goals, Pleasures,
Good times and bad.
If I am not willing to listen to
You, there can be no understanding
Which kills all love.
I will try to please you,
Without over compromising myself.
To not try and please you would be
To say- I do not love you.
I can not give you any of myself.
To compromise myself too much
Would be to lose my own identity
In yours- this cannot be or I
Would lose my capacity to understand
Myself, and the delicate balance
I reside in.
I love you
In this I say I love myself
For to allow myself to love you,
Accept, understand and care for you
I must first; accept, understand
And care for myself, without
This I cannot understand you
How can I expect to understand
Somebody else when I don't
Understand myself? How can I care
For you when I don't care about
Myself?
I will be patient, for how
Can I understand, if I give you
Little or no time to explain
It takes years to grow a tree,
Days to grow a flower,
And I don't know how long, to grow
A meaningful relationship.

Your Mask (poem)

I always see you caring for others
Trying not to hurt those around you.
usually keeping your feelings hid
covered over deep inside
your feelings you usually hide,
covered over deep inside
always thinking of those you know
letting your thoughts of them show
then when you get to know someone,
you end up knowing everyone
and when someone gets down and out,
you seldom lose your cool and shout.
If you wonder why you're a friend,
its because your hand that you like to lend.


Opening Up (poem)

The tide of emotion rushes me
Fear, Content, Hurt, Love
I unfold myself slowly to you.
Hoping, prying I won't get hurt, rejected
Slowly, like great walls of stone
My defenses come down
All the things I do so confidently
Keep you at a safe distance from Me
Not just me, the person everybody
Thinks I am but Me the sensitive,
Caring person, a person who wants to
Please you, yet have my own ground, my own personality
But most people think that's impossible


Why, Why, Why? (poem)

I've seen this life,
This life that you say is mine.
I've seen what you think
Of other peoples lives.
So tell me
Do you not care?
Can you not see?
Can you not hear?
Do you not feel the pain?
The sorrow, the lies?
What about the anger?
It's hard to always see the bright side of life
When everything is becoming so dark.
Yet you don't seem to change anything.
It's the same old tricks, only a different time.
I've seen acts that should not have taken place,
For what, why?
Is it for your entertainment?
To teach a lesson?
Or could it be punishment?
For these are the questions that I ask of you,
At this hour I need to know?
Before another day late.
For today is the start
For your new life, a new beginning.